Lo and behold, a ghostly hand descends upon the keyboard. I have resurfaced from the dead after almost a year since my last post.
Since then, a lot of things have happened! For me, and I hope for you guys too. In a good way. In a growth way, if you know what I mean. We may not all be living our best lives right now, but let's live more of it each day.
For the faithful few who continued to check up on me, and who probably thought I either died or completely gave up on all writing, thank you. I'm very much alive. Not writing as much, but less stressed about it, and perhaps that's growth in its own way too.
I've come some way--not a long way; a few steps--since that last post. Worked through some fears, dealt with some of those crippling insecurities. Asked myself why it was so obsessively important for me to see myself as a writer, to be affirmed--in my definition of affirmation, at that--as one. Dealing with the lurking terror of failure, of not achieving the dream I'd spent my entire childhood and teenage years working towards, on which I'd built so much of my sense of identity on. I thought I was well educated on all the challenges of being an aspiring writer but this one aspect, at least, was something apparently the famous writers I'd read about never experienced! None of them, it seemed, had grown up firmly believing they would be published writers one day. I felt rather presumptuous.
I came back to this blog finally, when it no longer gave me feelings of guilt or anxiety looking at the stats/date of my last post.
Since then,
I have a new trip to write about, this time...to Spain!
I've finally adopted two guinea pigs!! Yes, the impossible has happened.
They deserve a post in their own right too.
I'm still receiving rejection emails. Some things don't change though we want them to, do they.
though recently I did get a nice personal PS from an editor who assured me that my piece almost made it for the final six, and that he did enjoy it. Bless you, random editor man. You have no idea what a difference that made.